Wish you were here.........
10 years ago today, I walked down the aisle of Berry Chapel at Ouachita Baptist University to join my life with that of my beloved. I wore the gown my Mother wore 27 years earlier (made for her by her father-in-law), and my bridesmaids wore peach. My Father and Grandfather conducted the ceremony, my Mom played the piano, and Ben and I sang to each other. Only a few dozen people were present, as we'd only given 6 weeks notice of our impending nuptials, but that wasn't what counted.
Over the last 10 years we've been through alot.
We've both struggled with depression, self-esteem, and lack of a direction in life.
We've lived in 3 different states together, and will be adding a 4th within the next week or two, although he's lived in two states and a country without me also.
We've both gained weight, lost weight, gained weight, lost weight, exercised, not exercised...............
We've pursued our musical ambitions and abandoned them, only to pick them back up again.
We've made new friends, lost friends, and reconnected with old friends.
We've experienced new things together, and seperately.
We've begun, and ended, new hobbies......alot of them!
We've argued, screamed, thrown things, hit things, and cried.
Most of all, and through it all, we have loved.
I love you Ben, everyday more than the one before it, even when I'm mad, and I thank you for 10 wonderful years and the years I know are left before us to experience. I just wish you were here with me, or I was already there with you.....
I miss you, love.